May 31st is the day we are returning to the states! Aaron and I decided this week that it is time we come home. This decision just sort of came naturally and we are excited to be coming home to our friends and family. We are doing a lot of talking and thinking about the path we will walk when we return to the States and are hoping that our experience here in Roatan will shed new light and new opportunities as we turn to the next chapter in our lives.
Our last couple of weeks has been so different than our first couple of weeks here on the island. When we first got here we were so eager to find a project. We needed something to show our production, something to make us feel better about the fact that we just picked up and changed our lifestyle. We needed something to show that we moved to an island and tried to impact the community. Unfortunately that is a truth for us. We were ‘those guys’. Here I am speaking for both of us! Let me rephrase…I was ‘that guy!’
I always laughed at people who said they were going out to the top of a mountain to ‘find themselves’. I still find a little humor in the thought of finding oneself. I don’t really understand how that works. But , what I have seen just in the short time that I have been here is that going somewhere totally different exposes things that would not otherwise be exposed. Maybe an exposure of a passion, an exposure of untapped personality, an exposure of a deep love, an exposure of perspective.
When I was back in the states I allowed myself to get into a situation where I focused only on the path right in front of me. I was aware of where I was. I was present in the now but my focus was always centered on what was directly in front of me. Since I have been here in Roatan I am opening my scope to a 360 degree view. I am trying out some Google earth BIRDS EYE VIEW. I am still trying to see what is happening right now but I want to see it all around. I want to be consumed by everything that is happening around me. Consumed by awareness of worldly things, consumed by my husband and all the great things he has to offer, consumed by my community, consumed by family, consumed with life. I am hoping that this consumption will reach into my heart and continue to find fire for every moment of every day. That this consumption will take the focus off me and into what’s happening around me.
Someone asked me the other day why am I happy and not bored here in Roatan? What in the world? I didn’t know the answer to that! But I think I do now. I have accepted that today is Saturday. A day that might be the best day of my life. I have a few things in the pipeline for plans but ultimately it’s about what the day brings. Instead of being consumed with a schedule I am consumed with the fact that I have 14 hours of day ahead. There is a world of new experiences coming right towards me. All I have to do is hit my internal ‘Google Earth bird’s eye view button’ and open my eyes to 360 degree view. As a wise man once said (Leonardo Dicaprio in Titanic J) “Make each day count.”
My Saturday morning toast to you! TO MAKING IT COUNT!
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